"But who can discern their own errors? Forgive my hidden faults" (Psalm 19:12).
There is a lot to be said about secret sins. You know, the ones you hide deep in the closet of your mind. They're the ones that are locked up in a box that keeps them from public view. You control the access. You know exactly what is behind that lock and key and there is absolutely, under no circumstances, that anyone will be sneaking a peak in there. It's a secret. But the Bible takes this idea even further into the land of "uncomfortable." Perhaps all secret sins are not those where you know exactly what is wrong and are keeping it secret for that reason. Maybe it's not all that calculated in every area. The reality is, there are thoughts, attitudes, words, and actions that are a part of the everyday life that are sin, but you are the only one that doesn't see it. Secret sins aren't just ones you hide from others, but ones that hide from you behind the pride of denial. Humility opens eyes.
For example, have you ever been in a conversation that became more of a argumentative debate rather than a two-way conversation? The idea of exchanging thoughts and ideas for the purpose of healthy communication has been traded by two people striving hard to be heard and proving their point that the other person is obviously wrong. There is no room to listen to the heart or to consider the perspective of another. It's all about the win. The problem becomes evident when no one really wins. The sin of pride has entered the room, humility has left the building, but there are two people left who both feel they are right and the other is wrong. This has been the catalyst that has seen the start of wars and the end of relationships. The sin of pride will convince you that you are right when it is painfully obvious to others that you are wrong.
David writes with this theme on various occasions throughout his life. He seems aware of his ability to be wrong while being self-deceived that he is right. Humility will, in fact, open the eyes to the reality of the situation. David's sins were obvious to Nathan, though David had blinded himself to the truth that his position as king was still subject to the reign and rule of God. He had covered something up in secret, but had convinved himself that he had right-ed his own wrongs. His self-denial was confronted. In Psalm 139, David writes with obvious emotion regarding those who have come against him and who have shown their hatred towards God. He follows those lines up with an appropriate showing of humility. "Search me and know my heart, O God. Test my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me. Lead me in the way everlasting."
Are you quick to assume that everyone else around you is wrong? There is a NEWS FLASH that God is wanting to speak to the core of your heart in this moment. You do not have a monopoly on righteousness. Humble yourself before the Lord. Seek Him for understanding and revelation in the areas where you may have been convinced that everyone else around you as a problem. The pride of life will rob you of the destiny God has called you to in being a reflection of Him and an influence for Him. "Who can discern their own errors? Forgive my hidden thoughts." Only God knows the integrity of your heart, even more than you are aware of yourself. Let Him show you the areas, the moments, where you have pressed on in being "right," but where He wants you to have pause so that He can work the "right" in you. Let God deal with the real secret sins inside of you.