"If we claim to have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth"
(1 John 1:6).
In 1996, I was 18 years old, fresh out of high school, basic training, and technical school. I had just arrived at the location in the Washington, DC area where I would spend the next few years serving my country in the US Army. Those first few weeks were a roller coaster ride for me in just about every way imaginable. I was living on my own, no longer a trainee, and spiritually, I was responsible for making choices that would prove to mark the path I would choose to journey. For those first few weeks, I decided to walk the fence. I enjoyed the new found quick acceptance from the guys in the barracks and was finding enjoyment in all that seemed to come with it. However, God brought me to a place one weekend, after I had spent Saturday night in the club and Sunday morning in the church, that I needed to choose. I could not continue to walk the fence and expect Him to be an active part in my life. I had to choose. I chose Him.
It is undeniable that actions speak louder than words, but actions must also speak at least as loud as words. To have fellowship with Jesus, to be a partner with Him, we have to be willing to trust Him enough to walk in His path. We cannot partner with Him and still choose to walk in our own ways, preferences, understanding, or for seeking our own pleasure. If we're still walking in darkness, then there's a greater distance between where we are and who He is.
Not only does your moral behavior need to fall in line with your partnering with Jesus, but also your trust and following through on that trust. If you trust Him, then worry, anxiety, vain imagination, and insecurities can not be allowed to hold a place in your life. Don't walk the fence with the darkness that seeks to crowd you out of the best God has for your life. Choose to walk in the light of His presence. The evidence of choosing to walk in that light will be shown in all aspects of your life: your marriage, your job, with your children, and in the secret places that are then reflected in your character. Choose to walk in His light only, in His blessing only, and for Him only each day! Your life will be blessed, victorious, and at peace when walking the fence is no longer an option.